Where did my stamina go?

Let me begin by stating a cold hard fact.

I lost my stamina.

It used to be I could go a full 5k, easy breezy. Instead of re-living the past and focusing on what I used to be able to do, I need to have a very clear picture of where I am now and what it will take to be where I want to be.

I thought that last night I could run without my c25k running app. Oh- ho-ho no no no! I will not be doing that again. There was no structure, and nothing to focus on except for how of breath I was, and how super jiggle-y my fat was. Having the app gives me a goal, and you feel accomplished after each section of running you do, or at least I do.

Tonight, I will be doing Week 4, Day 1. Which will put me at intervals of running for 5 minutes and walking for 2 1/2 minutes and that sounds like it will push me just enough. I need to ease back into things for the sake of my knee.
I have been feeling completely drained lately. Lethargic, strange appetite, emotional and I had no idea why. I stumbled upon this article today about how there is going to be a full-moon on friday. Makes sense! I’m preparing to turn into a werewolf. just kidding… but it does explain the strange energies and emotions I am dealing with currently. I realize I might be the only crazy person that feels this way, and I am okay with that.

I also recently became attuned to practice LaHoChi, which is an energy healing modality. I think being exposed to and opening up to new energies might also have a lot to do with why I feel so off lately. After some researching I did online, It turns out this is a common occurrence when someone undergoes the ascension process, Of which I thought you could only go through once… ( I went through this last january/february). NOPE, it’s a process. And silly me, thinking I was done with it, nope… still expanding and growing in my conciousness.Thank God for that though, right? When we stop learning … we might as well be dead 😛

Hope you are all having a good week so far!




First run completed! – week 3 day 1 starting point

Its been a couple of months in the making inside my brain, this desire to start running again brewing slow and steady. Thats a good sign though, slow and steady. Means I might actually have a long-term relationship with running.

Status report on the knee : Slightly puffier than before the run, feels a little funny, too. wobbly and sensations inside it. Knee problems are to translate into words. It’s just weird and not normal, mmkay?

Status report on muscle soreness: None. I have some sensations that indicate I might actually still have gluteus medius muscles and quadriceps! Hallelujah!

Status report on food: I had a big unhealthy coffee drink from starbucks. But I am just now realizing its time to shift my focus on the healthy things I eat, and make healthy-eatting the focus. I have been living in a place of “Oh, this is so bad for me, if I eat this… I am going to get fat…. Eating it anyway.” I need to change my thoughts about this whole thing all over again. And refocus.

At least I am feeling determined to start working out again. I have group meditation tonight. So, the run will have to wait for tomorrow!


Be like water.

As I sit here, staring at this blank page I am flooded with thoughts and emotions. It’s almost like standing at the precipice all over again, I remember the feeling in my stomach when I started this blog over a year ago, and it’s the same feeling.  The feeling that :

1) I am starting something BIG and its going to change the course of my life.

2) I am going to start running again… (despite my knee troubles)

3) A new and improved Shana is on the horizon!

Since I have written last, there have been major changes. My grandfather died. I became vegetarian. I started meditating and praying more, A LOT more. Injured my knee (torn medial meniscus). Got Straight A’s my first semester back at college ( WOOHOOOO!!!). Invited to join Honors Society.  Lost 20 lbs. Gained 20 lbs. Lost a couple of friends and made some new friends. Remodeled my house. and that’s just the major things…

Needless to say, I have been a busy, busy girl. I think the most profound change has been my spiritual life. I see things differently now, and my approach to life and the people I encounter on a daily basis is much different, and in a good way, a beautiful way.

I am creating more! I started a line of body butters and aromatherapy sprays, I plan on documenting that process more. In addition to getting back on track with running.

I also have no idea what I am doing with being a vegetarian. I have been eating the same 5 meals in rotation, so my blog will probably be my sounding board for recipes that I try as well.

See? Big Changes. I am reminded as I wrote this that I must be like water.. If I pour myself into a cup, I muse become the cup. If I pour myself into being a new business owner, I must BE the business owner. If I pour myself into vegetarianism I must BE vegetarianism. HA! BE whatever it is you are doing, it’s the only way to remain present and experience fully all that moment has to offer.

Cheers to new beginnings!